May 14, 2018

there would be no second date

Here's a classic example of how clueless I am about girls and how my negativity gets in the way.

Years ago, a co-worker of ours died.  He once was a local musician and so a bunch of local musicians threw a concert together to honor him.  Is was a celebration of his life.  This was shortly after I had broken up with a long-time gf after many long talks with this co-worker (and friend) who gave good advice on how to handle the situation with her.

So, at this point, I was on the market!  There she was...a girl I had a crush on from years back at the concert.  She didn't know the guy they were holding the concert for, she was just with a friend who knew him...but we talked about him for a bit and she seemed happy to see me since I hadn't seen her since a previous job where she was a frequent customer there.

This girl...wooo boy!  Blonde, glowing smile, so pretty, stacked.  I remember the day she came in to work once wearing an extremely tight t-shirt that said 'Rub the Buddha'...ha ha ha, she giggled so much making me blush when I read it aloud and did a Beavis & Butthead laugh.  And there she was, talkin' to me...she had just broken up, I found her online and we talked and I asked her out to a movie we wanted to see.  The movie was a month away, but we talked every night before bed about all kinds of stuff!

I dunno why, but I always had this superstition (?) about blondes since high they were too pretty, too unapproachable or too unobtainable.  But there she was saying yes to a date with me.  I felt a connection and definitely an attraction...and then date day came...

I was so shy with this blonde chick on our first date.  We were excited to see the movie and already talking about the next movie we'd go see on our next date.  During the movie she mentioned she was cold and my instinct was to warm her...but 'cos of a bad experience with the previous girl I dated...I didn't do anything.  She said it AGAIN...I coulda put my arm around her, I had a flannel I coulda wrapped her in...but stupid me, no.  A third time with a shiver, even and I just froze, didn't even respond to her...I didn't know what to do.

I was clueless I screwed up, she was huffy as she drove me home and I asked her to hang out after and she just dropped my sorry ass off.  I tried to talk to her that night and ask about the next movie we'd go see.  She said, there would be no second date.  I thought things went well, we've been talking every night for the past month and I...I just was flabbergasted!

So the clueless me who shoulda wrapped my arm around her at the movie asked her why.  I don't mind being rejected...I get rejected all the time, but I always have to know why 'cos clueless me is not good at reading girls.

"There's no spark."

I've heard that so many times...chemistry, spark, negative me took over and scared her off...she just stopped talking to me and eventually deleted me online and when she comes in to where I work now (back with her ex bf) she acts like I don't even exist.

This is how clueless & negative I am...sometimes I feel so hopeless with girls, I'm really dumb to knowing when they like me or not.  She obviously liked me at first, but...something changed.  I blew it.

There were other signs that told me it wouldn't turn into anything, but who knows...if I would have just tried to warm her up...maybe things woulda been better?

May 11, 2018

When I Became Your Master

You awake to my deep voice whispering in your ear, “Thank you for letting me live out some of my fantasies with you.  Now let me...fulfill one of yours…”

You try to look back at me after I whisper softly, but you are blindfolded…you try to turn, but your wrists are bound to the bed…heart racing you try to speak, but you are gagged.

“Mmmm…that’s right, you can’t beg for me or tell me what to say when you’re gagged like that can you?” my hand on your jaw and my forearm between your breasts…my chest bearing against your curled back as you struggle only for a second realizing that I am in complete control of you.  You can’t see anything, say anything or resist anything like this.  Your eyebrows curl upward in an expression of worry as I laugh a bit and kiss between them…you trust me, you know I can make you feel good and cum properly…but before, you were able to have a bit of control…now…you have none.

I take a long time just looking over you, the tingling and shivering and the crawling of your skin beneath me is unbearable.  I am breathing on you, I am kissing you, I am licking you and touching you and sucking and biting your soft flesh…the touching turns to grabbing and then rubbing and then just light stimulating fingertips that barely tickle your hair to rise and stand on end wherever I touch you.  My breathing is hot sometimes then cool other times…you never know which or where or how I am going to do whatever I am going to do to you.

“My girl is so beautiful…thank you for letting me have you in this way…” you wish to moan out: ‘ohhhh siiiiir’ but you can’t so you just softly moan into your tight gag!  You are so turned on letting me take complete control that you’re rubbing your shaking legs together just to heat yourself further in some way, but I strongly part them and keep them apart.  “You’re gonna have to learn some things though…”

You wince into the darkness of your blindfold wondering what I mean?  I breath down your thighs hotly and you stop resisting and instead let out a satisfying moaning, “Mmmmmmmm…”

“I love that you call me sir.  It makes me feel like a man and I can tell you respect and adore me when you say it…” yes you do, “…but…” but, what?  “When I make you cum you WILL say my name!”  I smooth my large hands down your burning inner tights forcibly pushing them far apart more, spreading your legs down to the bed as you squirm under me…”I do not wanna have to ask you again to remember that,” I quickly lift one leg and swat your bottom so hard, “…you WILL remember to do so…’cos I am NOT just some other guy…I have a NAME!” wow, I almost sound mad about it, you inhale and shake beneath me…is this what I’m really like?  No, I softly rub your bottom where I just swatted you trying to ease the pain I gave you and you relax a little bit feeling my breathing and my hands calming you.  You start to think about what I said; yes…you will say my name from now on when I make you happy.  I jump against you between your legs and hold your blindfolded & gagged face and ask you softly, but also very demandingly, “You got that?”

You try to mouth the words, ‘Sir, yes sir!’ but it’s only a series of inaudible moans into your gag.

“Good girl…” oh goodness, your legs wrap around me pulling my hardness to you just hearing me say those words.  “I love it when you beg…you’re always begging me to call you a good girl…aren’t you?”

“Mmmhmm,” you comply as you thrust your hips up towards me, the only thing you seem to be able to control now restrained and held down like this is your shapely hips beneath me, but even they are pinned down so all you can do is hump and gyrate and thrust up to me…

“But when you beg so much…it loses its meaning,” I reach into your panties, finally rubbing between your swelling pussy lips, “I will call you a good girl when you’re being a good girl,” each time I say it I pinch your slippery clit lightly, “but if you have to beg me for it, then it will eventually lose its effect…” I glide two fingers knuckles deep into you as I lay on top of you, you exhale and then gush into my hand repeatedly with each tickling curl I give…you can’t stop it, you can’t see anything or say anything and you’re finally letting go with me, I am in control of your pleasure, “You may cum good girl!” fuck, you already are cumming...

“Arrrgghhhhhhh mmm mmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmm arrrrrrr” is all you can manage as you hump into my hand cumming an almost embarrassing amount…trying to mutter my name through your gag...

“Since you’re such a good girl…” God, you wish I would stop abusing that power over you by saying it like that, “…I’m gonna take your blindfold off!  You want me to do that, huh?” I say almost as if I were pouting for you.

You quickly shake your head ‘YES’ repeatedly before I slowly peel it from your face…the visual is the perfect finish to your climax…I am fully clothed in black slacks and a black silk, long-sleeved, button down dress shirt…decked out just like a man should be, especially a man who is so domineering and in control.  You are not fully dressed however, as you’re adorned with a garter with fishnet stockings, lace thong panties, a corset pushing your tits just up under your chin and a lacy see-thru bra that can barely contain them…all black…all sexy, in fact you’ve never felt so sexy in all your life as I look over your shaking body below me.

“Maybe you’re a bad girl, wearing such things?” I say to you as you look over yourself…my fingertips dancing along all the lacy linings of your underthings, smirking at you as you squirm in place.  “And you ruined your panties…” I quickly snatch them off and lower myself between your legs again licking your sweetness from my fingers before I lower my head between your legs.  Fuck, I’m not gonna let you have a breath…my tongue is wagging out at you long and slimy as you lose my eyes ‘cos you’re big breasts are blocking the view…

“FaaaaaaaaaaaaQuuuuuuu…” you squeal out as I stab my tongue deep into your already defeated pussy.  I lick you open so good you might not just gush this time, you’ll probably splash.  “Whaaaa whaaa WHAAAA…” you cry out as I lift you up, your thighs wrapped tight around my head and my hand pressing against your bare navel pushing your diaphragm into place to cum very very hard into my mouth.  You’re already dizzy, but with your feet pointing to the ceiling and your body almost hanging upside down and your bouncing breasts smacking you in the face in this position, all the blood is rushing to your head!  Your mind is about to explode.  The sight of this makes you cum, if your hands were free you’d be pulling my hair and fucking my face.

“Mmmmm tastes so gooooood…” I snarl back into it as you don’t hold back ‘cos you know I can eat it all.  Your feet now beating against my back as you can’t fight it, my lips and tongue devour and control you.  I lean up just teasing your clit now with the bumpy tip of my wet tongue looking into your wide open eyes I tell you, “…just like a good girl should taste!”

Without giving you any recovery I lash at your clit with my tongue and push my middle finger into your bum…”Nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhh” you scream and drool into your gag as you can’t stop me.  My tongue sucks your clit into my lips like a straw…it’s budding as you go multi-orgasmic…in this position…no…”Nuuuuuuuhhhh, gaaa gaaaa gaaaaaaaaaaa ahhh ahhhhhhh ohhhhhhhhh!!!” what am I doing, in this position if I continue…yes I lean up more and as you gush and splash I flick my left middle finger into your pussy to your sweet spot and my right middle finger all the way into your ass…you cum uncontrollably all over yourself, the pussy juices raining down over your tummy, breasts and face…

“Yeah…gooooood giiiiirl, that’s my girl…push…let it happen, just push it out…”I feed your pussy three fingers as they take turns tickling and curling into you, then I lick your clit up and down and press your navel with my other hand holding you to it and keeping you going…you finally push and you squirt continuously not being able to fight it or stop it as your arms try to wobble free from your restraints…

“Arrrrrgh Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ARRRRRRGH FAAAAAQU!” you manage to kick me off of you as I slowly lower you back down to the bed and let go of you and let you spasm and spray beneath me, kissing up your leg and sides and breasts and licking your pussy splashes from your face as your legs and back curl into the fetal position somehow still cumming…

“It’s okay…” I hold you in my strong arms and squeeze you letting you finish, “…I gotcha, shhhhhh…that’s my good girl…” you feel the urge to call out to me but all you can do is moan into your gag.  As if I were reading your mind I finally undo your gag so you can finally speak, “Now you know what you’re supposed to say when I undo this, righ?” you slowly shake your head ‘yes’ like a corrected child…

Your mouth is finally freed from the gag and you breath and drool as you try to speak, looking into my eyes, cum drunk, “Ohh…” you pant over and over hoping to make me happy, but barely able to speak, “Oh..." do I approve of you, you must say my name.  You're able to whisper my name with, “Oh sir, t-thank you!” you wanna hug me back, but you’re all tied up still.  I slowly turn your weakened body over onto your knees bent over in front of me with your restrained wrists stretched out in front of you now as you’re face down to the bed.  “Oh sir…what are you doing to me?”

“You’re a bad girl…” I scold you getting you into this new position…

“Noooo, I wanna be a good girl for you!” you start to tear up almost crying, not knowing what you did wrong…

“You’re bad ‘cos you forgot all about this!” all you hear is my zipper unzipping and you think to yourself…

“Ohhh fuck…” yup, there’s more, “Oh sir, I’m so sorry, how could I ever forget,” you pant and drool again, “your…huge…thing!” you really start to get into playing along, “Make me good again, sir, with that big dick of yours!”

I tuck it between your legs from behind until my hips are against your ass then I slide it up under your garter belt to hold it in place…close and tight against your wet slit.  You instinctively hump in place against it as I hold onto your hips easing you up and down against it as your pussy drools all over it.  “Mmmm…so wet…you smell so good, and taste even better!”  I shove two of my fingers that were just deep inside you into your mouth from behind and fish hook your lips to the side so I can lick your cum off your pretty face.  I’m hunched over you as I start to thrust against you from behind…my hands find your breasts and lower the cups of your lacy bra exposing them.

“Ohhh sir!” you start to wobble as I thrust harder, I’m not even inside you and already this is one of the best fucks off your life…you think to yourself: ‘There’s NO way he’s a virgin!?!’  Your breasts swing as we hump in unison and I press your upper back lower, grasping your shoulders as I massage them between thrusts.  As your breasts swing and lower your nipples brush against the satin sheets just perfectly as you start to convulse around my cock.  I lean into you more grabbing your neck gently in both hands from behind and you collapse beneath me as I thrust you down into the bed with my strong hips, then pulling your neck and head back to kiss me as you hear the corset stretching over your back and my hips smacking against your bare ass, then you hear your pussy splashing against the bed making a wet spongy noise as my cock slides against it so hotly it melts you…”Oh my sir…am I a good girl again?” you need to know, but I don’t answer, I just keep plowing you between me and the bed.  It’s hard to see with your eyes rolled back into your head, but you plead with me, cumming as you scream my name like I told you to and, "Sir…am I your good girl???”

Holding onto your neck and still kissing you I finally answer softly, “Yes, you are my good girl!” which makes you instantly release again all over my hardness...your wrists hurt trying to pull free, but can’t fight it again, I am slaying you again and all you can do is lay beneath me and climax in so many waves, I pull your hair back very hard so I can hear you scream for me just before you pass out…

You wake up the next morning with a soaked sheet around you and your hands unbound.  You rub your wrists and feel something around your neck…it’s a thin lacy collar.  You look around for me, but I am not there…you get up, somehow still dizzy as you walk to the bathroom.  You see a note taped to the mirror as you look over yourself in this black lingerie feeling so utterly sensual and tingly all over.  Your new collar reads your name on one side and “My Good Girl” on the other.  You smile in the mirror still smelling and tasting yourself in the air around you.  The note reads:


“Dear Slave of Mine,

I hope I have fulfilled your fantasy last night and I hope to indulge in more of them with you in the future.  Now that you wear my collar, you belong to me.  I cannot wait to give you as much of my love as you gave me today.  I have so much for you; I was going to give you some, but you had already passed out before I could.  You came so much for me, I can still smell and taste you...

Loving Care,
Your Master

May 06, 2018

My Famous "Orgasmic" Salad

You arrive back at your desk after having to step away for a moment.  When you return you see a small vase with a single white lily in it with a card and bag.  The card reads:

I made you something to eat darlin’…sorry I can’t stay with you to eat lunch, but I’ve got something to take care of…

Loving Care,
Your Sir

You look all around to see if you can catch me leaving as you were only away from your desk for a moment…but there is no sign of me.  You smell the flower and uncover your lunch inside the bag.  It’s obvious I took great care in its presentation and yes, it’s my ‘famous’ Greek salad.  You giggle to yourself about how I hyped it up as you open the container.  A romaine and cabbage blend at the base, garnished with tasty imported black & green olives, sliced mini cucumbers and tiny banana peppers.  Mmm, generous chunks of feta cheese crumpled all over as well as a Greek vinaigrette, potent in smell, but only lightly drizzled on top.  And what’s this, a few red & green wine grapes for added sweetness?  But no tomatoes?  Then you notice on the back of the card:


“P.S.- I don’t like tomatoes!”

You laugh a bit at how silly I am before you take a few bites and its great…you don’t know about ‘orgasmic’ though, but you do have to message me to tell me how good it is and to thank me.  I respond by telling you I’m about to eat lunch myself.  You ask what I’m about to eat and then you feel a slight breeze on your legs and you feel a chill coming over you.  Then I respond by telling you…

“You…!” oh God, I was hiding under your desk the whole time, the breeze was my cool breath now growing warmer.  My hands are already at your waist as you slowly continue chewing what’s left in your mouth.  Your eyes flutter a bit as I pull down your bottoms slowly off your rump and thighs, then down around your calves and ankles…with them around your ankles there’s no way you’re getting away from me.  You can feel every hot, damp breath I’m breathing now over your bare legs.  There are people around, you don’t wanna get caught, but it excites you to allow yourself to be this naughty out in the open with no one the wiser.  You continue to enjoy the salad so as not to arouse attention, but you are more than aroused as I grab your knees and pull them apart, moving myself between your legs as I grab your chair and pull you closer to me under your desk.

“Mmm…” maybe this salad is orgasmic after all?  I‘m deliberately slow as I pull your panties to one side…it’s like as if this is the first time I’ve done this for you.  My lips and touch and breathing is all slow, shaky, soft, gentle and curious…like I’m rediscovering you all over again.  You know what I can do to you, but I’m taking my time as if I’ve never done it to you before.  The anticipation is killing you as you continue to eat your salad, playing off to the rest of the office that you’re just eating lunch…when in actuality, you’re the one who’s about to get eaten…eaten completely out…

What was I waiting for; my lips and tongue are right there?  You make sure to let me know that you can’t wait much longer with the sound of the fierce fork poking into your salad…you need my mouth on you, you need my tongue IN you.  Your hips are rocking in your chair and I haven’t even given you a single lick, just a few wet kisses across your Kegel muscle from one thigh to the other…also with lots of heavy breathing making your lower region shake and quiver for more.

RING!  Your phone rings…how could you answer now?  You gulp what salad you were eating and pick up the receiver, nervous to say anything in your heightened state.  Of course, just as you are about to answer your phone I stab your gash with my meaty tongue…you try to answer without sounding like a phone sex operator, you’re supposed to identify your office and yourself, but instead of saying your name you pout, “and I’m a good girl!”

My God how embarrassing, but the person on the other end didn’t pay attention to your slip up.  My tongue lashing continues throughout the short embarrassing call to which every no you can only manage: “Nu-uh!” and to every yes you moan out: “Mhmm!”  You don’t wanna get into trouble at your new job so you try to push away from me recoiling your hips, but I just strongly pull your chair back and dive back in between your thighs.  As you put the receiver down, my pussy eating slows and is less intense.  You stab back into the salad just as hard as you wish I’d stab my tongue back into you.  Wait…there is a tomato, buried under some lettuce here.  It’s a big cherry tomato so you jab at it with your fork.  What the hell…wait, that’s no tomato!  You’ve seen these before, but never had the nerve to get one or use one…but maybe you’ll need to now since you’re on the brink and you could get loud.  You shake your head a bit hiding your face in your wild hair as you slowly put the ball gag in your mouth, moaning a bit as I suck your clit numb under your desk.  You make sure no one can see you humping into your chair and into my mouth as you hold on tightly onto your desk with your bosom pressing against it.

Then as you feel yourself getting closer, trying to hurry so you can get back to work and not get caught, you get a message on your phone.  Your shaky hands fumble with your phone and when you see the message from me it’s a pic…you remember the first dick pic I sent you, but this one is even more impressive as I am fully hard and extended this time.  Goodness gracious!  You set the phone down just staring at it as you thrust your hips hunched into your desk shaking all over, concentrating on absolutely drowning me with your love juices…no more holding back, no more teasing…it’s time to cum.  You haven’t properly released since the last time we were together…

I answer by sending you a message under the pic that says, “You may cum now…” and then I grab your ass from your chair, burying my face into you.  You thrust so hard my head is bumping the underside of your desk, knocking things over on top of your desk, but you don’t stop bumping my head as you thrust over and over.  My tongue is too much as it is continuously changing its length, girth, motions, speeds, intensities and hardness deep inside you…not stopping until you gush repeatedly into my open mouth…and you do, over and over.  Good thing for that ball gag you’re now biting into or else you would be fired right now from the orgasm you’d otherwise be screaming out loud in front of all your co-workers.  Every muscle relaxes, boy you needed this, even your back feels a little better as you fall back into your chair.  After I finish you completely, I kiss around your area and cover your womanhood back up into your drenched panties and pull up your bottoms.

Another message, “Is the coast clear?” I ask as you look around spitting out the ball gag with a bit of drool, hoping no one saw you writhing and humping into your desk.  You regain your breath and gasp and sigh in relief that no one is around.

“No one is around, hurry up and get out from my desk before I get caught!” you beg and plead.  I push your chair back from your desk with your weakened body laying in it.  Then I crawl out, looking around and there is still no one around.  I look back down at you as I stand up and hunch over your chair…my obvious bulge flexing from my slacks tight against you as I lean over to kiss you.  You open and accept my kiss…just this morning we kissed after thinking we’d never kiss again and this kiss is even more intense.  Soooo sexy and sweet as I let your juices flow from my mouth into yours.  “Mmmmm…” you approve of my kiss and your own sweetness…you didn’t realize you climaxed so much as you set still in the chair swallowing your own honey several times as the kiss continues…fucking WOW.

“Goooood girl!” you shake all over just hearing me say it…

“I’m sorry I bumped your head, sir!” you reach up to run your fingers through my hair making sure you didn’t hurt me.  With your arm reaching up to me, I’m bulging against your chest, “I was a bad girl for hurting your head…” you continue as you place your hand on my chest, “…and hurting your heart!”  You look up at me genuinely concerned; “Maybe you should punish me?” you stare into my crotch and then look back up at me playfully curling your lip pretending to be bad.

“No darlin'…you’re a good girl…you never meant to hurt me…” I kiss your hand softly to assure you once again, “I’m okay…”

June 24, 2013

E3 2013 Aftermath

Hello everyone.  What an E3, huh?  I waited for the dust to settle a bit before I posted this ‘cos I literally didn’t have a lot of time.  Thought I was gonna do more, but I just decided to lump it all into this “aftermath” post.  I wanna talk about the state of the industry now that we know more about XBONE & PS4, then I wanna talk about Nintendo’s showing and the Best Buy Nintendo Experience I “experienced” this last Saturday.

My “state of the industry” post last time was a bit long-winded, so I’ll try to keep this part shorter.  WOW, Sony impressed everyone with PS4…even me.  Mainly ‘cos Microsoft set up the easy “win” and basically handed it to Sony by sticking with the crappy XBONE DRM policies.  Sadly, as was predicted, some select people (or should I say, future communist slaves) are actually excited to be XBONED due to all the great exclusive’s...but for rational level-headed people, it was not impressive at all.

Most of the games at Microsoft’s pre-E3 showing were also coming to other platforms and didn’t look that much better than current generation games.  Yeah, Halo is exclusive, but I really think that franchise isn’t as influential as it once was…basically only with XBOT’s who have to have everything Halo regardless that the last ones were very lacking (due mainly to no Bungie involvement).  One exclusive to XBONE got me kinda excited; Killer Instinct.  I’m a huge KI fan so when I saw that it was coming I was both excited that it was coming, but saddened that was an XBONE exclusive…until I saw it in action and read more about it.  Microsoft has destroyed the franchise and RARE as a whole, the character designs were ruined and the pay-for-character model relegates this game to Perfect Dark Zero territory...I actually pity RARE now  No other exclusives were worth anyone giving up their rights to own what they pay for…no way no how.  And the Microsoft conference itself was sad at points complete with booing and someone even saying “XBOX sucks” at one point.  Microsoft shutting off most one-on-one interviews and spending money to pay shills and marketers to hype XBONE all over the net is despicable…they’re going to continue to buy their “success” with XBONE, but I have to stop myself here ‘cos otherwise this post will be too long.

Next-gen (XBONE & PS4) itself didn’t look that good visually so if the industry is gonna try to rely on the HDx2 to mean anything, they’re going to be disappointed with the results, diminishing returns and all.

With PS4, I think Sony did a lot of things right.  I’ll address some negatives first though, to show how even when there’s negatives, Sony turned them around, unlike Microsoft.  Negative #1 was that PS4 won’t be natively backwards compatible with past PlayStation systems, but we already knew about that before E3 and they mentioned that they’re working on getting that working somehow through streaming…which is more than what I can say about the XBONE.  Negative #2 was that they are now introducing a paywall to play online multiplayer on PS4, but they snuck it in so craftily in the middle of people still cheering for their pro used games policies.  It was to be expected…and they are giving you a lot with PS+, but it’s still sort of a negative, but not so bad since XBONE will make you pay for XBL too.  Negative #3 was that there were a couple of hiccups with the on stage demos, but again , they actually transitioned out of those moments smoothly enough that it wasn’t too negative…especially compared to Microsoft’s on stage performance.

Even with all those minor negatives though, Sony had too many positives to ignore…so maybe there’s a little hope for the game industry with PS4.  Compared to the XBONE, it’s more powerful, yet smaller & cheaper, it’s more about games and indie developers and it has that Destiny game (which was the only “next-gen” game to me) which not only trumps all of XBONE’s exclusives, but is also made by former Halo creators (Bungie) and makes what Halo is today even more irrelevant.  Sony really stuck it to Microsoft at this E3 by seemingly going after the XBOX 360 audience and learning from some of the mistakes of the PS3!  I thought for sure Sony would follow Microsoft on those anti-consumer DRM policies in one way or another in an effort to appease the rest of the industry that obviously wants it…but they didn’t.


I have to hijack this post now with newer information as, again, I’ve been so busy I haven’t been able to keep up with my blog and I wrote all of the above before Microsoft decided to do a 180 on us and change their minds about the XBONE’s DRM policies.  So for the rest of this post I’ll be taking that into consideration.  I really want to point out though that I still despise Microsoft even though they changed their minds about this situation in light of PS4 getting all the positive feedback during E3.  What I see now though is that Microsoft can wait ‘til they “have the gamers” and then change their minds again on a whim and reinstate these policies.  In fact, Sony could too since they’re “leaving it up to publishers” to decide for themselves about their own DRM.

I don’t really think you could trust this next generation of consoles really…but that goes double for Microsoft with the XBONE.  So, I still see the state of the industry in a bad situation when these things are still not really settled and our rights to actually own what we pay for are still in question.  But that’s the way the world is headed, no matter how anti-consumer it is.  I really am just trying to point out that if you support these policies (or the companies that purvey them) then you get what you deserve.  I imagine that the “game industry” see’s now that it can’t force this DRM the way they want, so they’ll ease it in as this next generation progresses until BAM, Generation 9 will be digital only and have no disc support at all.  We’re already forgoing backwards compatibility like it’s no big deal, when actually it IS a big deal.  That together with all the talk of “the cloud” and all that, a digital only console is probably the only way the industry see’s that they can force DRM now that consumers cry out against what they attempted with the XBONE.

So while, coming out of E3 with PS4’s hype and now XBONE becoming the XBOX 180, the industry appears to be heading in the right direction.  I think it’s more of a delay of the inevitable, though, so its state is still in peril and still on the brink of another crash.  There’s so much more to say against Microsoft’s 3RD XBOX, but I’ll leave that for my “3RD Console Curse” post I’m cooking up.

Now, onto Nintendo…after they announced they weren’t going to have a traditional E3 pre-show press conference I kinda downgraded my hopes a little to avoid disappointment.  What I am disappointed in is the lack of journalistic integrity because of this coupled with all the Nintendoomed articles leading up to E3 this year.  It gets worse with them by the day.  Before the Wii launched some journalists went on a “Nintendo should go 3RD party crusade” no matter how much nonsense that was, they were quickly silenced by how amazingly well the Wii sold, so they seemingly went into hiding on this crusade, or should I say, they just delayed the crusade for the Wii U since it’s not selling out like the Wii did.  So the: “Nintendo should bring their franchises to other platforms” nonsense is back again in full force even though they showed off some great games again this year.  I’m going to say it’s intentional.  Yes, a conspiracy by the industry against Nintendo…call me crazy, but I’ll be posting more about that in another post someday showing that no matter what Nintendo does, they’re doomed, even when they’re not.

I’m kinda glad Nintendo did Nintendo Directs’ this year instead of a traditional showing ‘cos it allows Nintendo to directly talk to potential consumers rather than have it ground up and spit out by the game industry “journalists” who were kinda “cut out” of the mix doing it this way.  It’s like when Nintendo started doing the “Iwata Asks” to ask good questions of game makers instead of garbage that normal game journalists would say like: “Casual, casual, casual, core gamer…you can’t survive without 3RD parties so when are you making games for iOS?” which is way more informative then the typical negative and ignorant drivel most of the industry spews about Nintendo.

Urghhh…well, back to Nintendo’s E3 2013 showing.  I think Nintendo knew they were going to be overshadowed by Sony/MS since they are showing off new hardware this year, but even still, I think they had plenty for the Nintendo-only gamer like me!  I’m just gonna post a bunch of trailers in case you haven’t seen…

The Monolift Soft game “X” and Bayonetta 2 from Platinum games *really* impressed me and Mega Man in the new Smash Bros. is all big news for Nintendo, so yeah, I’m happy.  Since I posted a bunch of trailers, there’s not much else that needs to be said except that I’m REALLY happy how the Nintendo Experience went at the Best Buy in Fairborn, Ohio…it was fun, the games were great, the people were all nice (especially the Nintendo representative Don (or was it Dan) and a girl there that was nice enough to let me have the “Year Of Luigi” coin she earned…THANKS AMY!!!) and all the free swag was awesome, check out this video I made and see…

Thanks for reading and stay tuned to my blog in the coming weeks for my “3RD Console Curse” and “Nintendoomed” posts, as well as other non-Nintendo related posts and pages I’ll be updating!

June 10, 2013

The State Of The "Game Industry" Going Into E3 2013

Yup, not that I’m doing a prediction post or anything, I’d just like to talk about the state of the "game industry” going into this year’s E3.  I’m only for Nintendo, but I still like to see what the competition is doing since I work in video games and it’s good to know these things

Before I begin, I’m not under the blanket label of what most people in the “industry” (the console makers, the publishers, developers, retailers & gaming journalists) or even those outside the industry (mainstream media and gamers themselves) call either a casual or hardcore gamer.  I don’t like labels to begin with but those two are particularly stupid as it does nothing to define the person or define the types of games they like.  Those lame terms were made up and spewed about the industry as a way to excuse away the success of the Wii with expanding the market, a market that the industry itself was shrinking.  That’s a whole other topic altogether, the point is, most people like to simply label things with easy defining names so that they can name it, excuse it away and then move on, like as if to ignore it altogether.

If you play games, you’re a “gamer” but ultimately, we have opinions, preferences, biases and due to that: agenda’s.  Mine would defiantly be a skewed towards Nintendo, sure, but that doesn’t make me a “casual” gamer any more than if a person preferred Sony/Microsoft consoles being “hardcore” gamers.  Most people really make a lot of assumptions based on those labels and that’s really ignorant.  Not all hardcore gamers like shooters ‘cos you know what…there’s no such thing as a one-size-fits-all hardcore gamer.  Likewise, not all casual gamers play cellphone games…they don’t ‘cos there’s literally no such thing as a casual gamer.  What’s a casual game…Tetris?  Well I know several people who play that game pretty hardcore.  What’s a hardcore game…Call Of Duty?  Well I personally play that game casually, as in lightly from time to time.

I’m getting off topic here as I’m trying to talk about the state of the industry going into E3.  The industry pandering to the broken ideas of casual vs hardcore is just one of the many problems with the state it’s in.  If you want to read more about this I’ll make more posts about it later, in the mean time I’ll put a link at the bottom of this post to Sean Malstrom’s blog as he’s written extensively on that and many other worthwhile topics about video games and such.  Anyways, the industry’s current state is not very good.  Of course gamers take direct offence to that ‘cos they see how much time/money they spend on their hobby and they think: “How in the hell could the industry be hurting?”

Well it is, BADLY…the numbers don’t lie…year on year everything is down across the board.  Do the research yourself.  In this last generation we’ve seen huge mergers of former rivals to weather the storms, tons of layoff’s and whole development studios shut down, smaller publishers either falling off the map or getting gobbled up by bigger ones, even large publishers being dismantled, console manufacturer’s going for behemoth hardware sold at huge losses that they’re only just now making their money back on, a prolonged hardware cycle to help ease the pain of those losses, after the highs of the previous generation gaming journalism had their own TV station, big publications like EGM & Nintendo Power magazines…now, that’s all gone and they’re relegated to low-budget web vlog’s, even GameStop who was arguably making the most off this last generation is considering closing stores, publishers trying to cash in on the “casual” fallacy losing their asses in the end ‘cos that bubble burst a while ago yet they still talk about it like it’s still okay, rising development costs that go for the chasing Hollywood AAA business models when actually one game could make or break your whole company, etc.  On and on the list goes and yes, there’s been good games and success stories, but overall the industry is hurting.

Nintendo foresaw this decline, that’s why they made the Wii (codenamed Revolution for a reason) to fight disinterred, to keep development budgets under control, costs down and to ultimatly expand the market beyond the declining state it was in…but the industry shunned it despite it selling out for 3 years straight ‘cos they had invested so much on the HD generation (PS3 & XBOX 360) that they couldn’t switch gears and catch the next big thing.  So, since they missed it, they’re going to act like it didn’t matter, mislabel it as some casual fad and ignore it even to their detriment.  They left money on the table!  They used the quick careless cash-ins they made on Wii games to fund their huge HD projects on other systems.  Even Nintendo fell for the self-fulfilling prophecy the industry was spewing about the Wii and stopped thinking disruptively (which is how the Wii had done so well, ‘cos it was going against the industry’s ideals) and started thinking like everyone else by making “hardcore” and/or industry-like games.

The industry is in bad shape, you can try to excuses that away with: “Oh it’s a shift in generations, of course things are low now!” or even: “No, everything is fine, you’re exaggerating the problems…these companies make millions of dollars!” but that’s the perceived notion that everyone wants you to think.  The economy is nowhere close to as good as it was when this last generation started, so even if everything were normal it would still have to be lower due to the macroeconomics going on in the world today.

What does this have to do with going into E3?  Plenty, even E3 has been in decline in recent years, but besides that, what we’ve heard about the next generation of consoles is the ugly reality of the state the industry is in.  People were SHOCKED when all the negative rumors came true about the strict DRM policies that the next XBOX would have.  Yes I was surprised, but at the same time, since I have a grasp on what’s going on in the industry and not just listening to the byline of: “Millions of dollars, everything is okay!” I saw it coming.  THIS is my proof that the industry is peril.  Why would an industry who thrived in generations past despite with used games suddenly want to eliminate them…hell it’s beyond used games, you can’t even rent them at all or even lend them out to friends without jumping through fire hoops.  This industry has been moving towards things like this for a while.  Things like what?  Not actually owning what you pay for!  Hell, lump in other entertainment industries like music & movies or even other capitalist things like land, homes & cars.

Before I go on another tangent…look at all the industry buzzwords recently.  Streaming, digital distribution, DLC, “the cloud”, DRM, licenses.  I hate buzzwords as much as I hate labels, but these aren’t just buzzwords to try to promise something they won’t deliver on, it’s something they plan on delivering upon!  We buy it, but we don’t actually own it!  That’s right, that’s what it’s all about.  That’s their way of cutting costs, not reevaluating their management styles and/or keeping development costs low in a time of economic depression…hell no, let’s go all digital and “into the cloud” so that we can save money while screwing over the physical media partners, the packaging and distribution channels, the retailers and the consumers who put us where we are today.  “It’s because they’re greedy!” yes, but it’s also ‘cos they’re hurting so much that they want to survive so they’re trying to cut costs any way they can.  Look at instruction booklets nowadays, it's not just about "going green", it's about saving greenbacks.  Eliminating used games is one step closer to that.

I am in no way defending Microsoft here, but really…it’s not like they did this by themselves, they obviously had publisher support for these decisions as it’s the industry as a whole themselves that want this.  And while Sony isn’t enforcing these policies like Microsoft is, they’re “leaving it up to publishers” to do it too…so Sony is no hero here either, I foresee them ultimately doing the same.  Another thing that shows the industry is hurting is that they deliberately made their next-gen systems non-backwards compatible with both physical & digital games so that all that money goes to next-gen games instead.  What’s funny is, Nintendo seems to be doing the opposite of all this which could be why the industry has been dismissing it, ‘cos they won’t conform to the norm.

Now since I work in a retro game shop people are going to say: “Bla bla bla, your time is up you’re just resisting the inevitable in an effort to make yourself feel safer in your job!” and while it could hurt our business, most of our business isn’t even current or next-gen games which I think is due to declining interest in them.  This only amplifies why things like retro gaming are seeing resurgence…’cos retro gaming is still better than modern gaming in many consumers’ eyes.

Now, back to E3, I imagine that even with all the whining about DRM, some people (the self-proclaimed hardcore) will happily bend over to be XBONED…which is really sad considering how anti-consumer it is.  These will be the early adopters lining up to be XBONED on launch day, but hopefully there’s not too many that justify their ownership rights being lost for the sake of *slightly* better graphics or else there’s literally no hope for humanity.

I said I'd be updating this posts with pics/links, but I had no time so I'm just gonna put a link in for Sean Malstrom's blog at the bottom.  Thanks for reading and happy E3 before the impending 2ND video game market crash!

Malstrom's Articles News

June 08, 2013

Nintendo E3 2013 Preview

I guess this is my way of doing a “preview” for Nintendo’s E3 2013 showing.  I had to stop myself from saying Nintendo’s “pre-show” since Nintendo is not having a live pre-show this year.  Some would say that’s a sign of weakness, or Nintendo’s lack of relevance in the “gaming industry” or blab bla bla, but I think it’s just that E3 and the “gaming industry” as a whole that are becoming less and less relevant.  Not that I want to go on a tangent about the impending video game “crash” as this post is about Nintendo’s E3 2013, but I’ll probably make posts about that later.  While partly, I’m sad there won’t be a big live traditional E3 pre-show event for Nintendo this year I understand completely why they’ve decided to do their own thing (Nintendo Direct) instead.

The “industry” at large has it in for Nintendo, so I think it’s best for Nintendo to play by their own rules here, especially when the other two hardware competitors will likely have huge over-the-top press and presentations for their next consoles…so, it’s just best to stay out of that aspect of it.  Nintendo doing their own thing this year means they won’t have to worry about gaming industry “journalists” pissing on their parades as much.  The Nintendo Directs are usually pretty good and I’ve heard there will be a “main” one hour one probably in place of a live pre-show with other smaller Nintendo Directs throughout the rest of E3.

Plus many Best Buys will be holding “Nintendo Experiences” events during E3 complete with Luigi “swag” and playable demos of Wii U titles that will release in the future.  I’m hoping to be able to get off work and go to the Fairfield, Ohio Best Buy this coming Saturday to do this, but I have to line up a ride since busses don’t go through Beavercreek.

As far as Nintendo’s E3 games itself, hrmmm…I used to theorize about how Nintendo would do their pre-show every year and was brainstorming about this one up and until they announced they were not doing one this year.  But I’ll continue to theorize here in this post.  Before they said they weren’t doing a live pre-show I imagine they’d have a big show to “compete” with their competitors next consoles and they’d be all about games.  I “dreamed” that they’d have 10 big games and the idea of how they’d be announced was that each one would be numbered like say:
1) Some new franchise
2) Bayonetta 2
3) Pikmin 3
4) Super Smash Bros. Free 4 All
5) GTA V
6) Resident Evil (5 and) 6 Wii U Edition
7) Final Fantasy 7 remake
8) Mario Kart 8
9) ???
10) “X” and or Dragon Quest 10

Yeah, I know, crazy…I guess there’s reasons as to why I thought these and why they could or couldn’t happen, but I think I’ll be more realistic now.  We’re expecting (or speculating) that the next (3D) Mario, Mario Kart and Smash Bros. will be there as well as some surprises like Retro Studio’s new game so I guess I’ll give some thoughts on those to stay realistic.  I’m hoping the next (3D) Mario would have a 3D over world map connecting tons of 2D levels, basically a mix of both 2D & 3D Mario’s as I think that would sell more Wii U’s.  I like the idea of mixing 2D & 3D together in those franchises that had been in both, but this post isn’t about that…so, more realistically, the next (3D) Mario will probably be “Super Mario Universe” taking it a step above Super Mario Galaxy 1 & 2 instead.  Mario Kart, I think, needs something new, but I dunno know what Nintendo will do with that...some rumors of adding newcomers from 3RD parties like Sega with Sonic, but who knows?  Retro Studio’s new game is hopefully there, whatever it is.  Part of me would love a Metroid Prime 4 or anything Metroid from them, but if not that then I like the rumor of a Star Tropics revival from them.

The one I’m most excited for (as is most everyone else) is the next Super Smash Bros., but I have worries about what they’re planning too.  To me, they shouldn’t mess with what works, just add MORE.  More content, more Nintendo history, more characters, more items (especially trophies & PokeBalls) more levels, more newcomers from 3RD parties (like Mega Man or Simon Belmont, etc.)…just, more!  Also, improve online play and don’t be afraid of dlc and/or NFC (near field connection) figurine characters as time goes on to keep the game fresh.  That’s what I think most people want, but I’m afraid they’re gonna change the next game too much in part ‘cos of what Sakurai has already said, Namco/Bandai’s Tekken team being involved and that there’s a 3DS version of the game too.  I fear that they may make this traditionally 2D fighter into a 3D fighter like Sakurai did with the multiplayer fighting in the 3DS Kid Icarus game.

Rumors abound as it is E3 season, but there’s two other things I’d like to touch on: 1) Square Enix seems to be holding a conference at the exact same time as Nintendo’s show floor (not the main Nintendo Direct) press event which could mean nothing or they're being Sony shills & 2) everyone thinks this is a make or break thing for Nintendo, but it really isn’t…the state of the “industry”, Nintendo and the Wii U are topics all their own, but I think people are writing Nintendo & Wii U off too much.  While it isn’t and probably won’t ever touch the success of the original Wii, that’s not to say Nintendo is hurting, they could coast on Gamecube-level success and still be okay.

Thanks for reading, E3 starts in a couple days, so we’ll see…
Nintendo Experience @ Best Buy
NeoGAF- Nintendo E3 2013

July 10, 2006

DVD- The Wizard

The Wizard is finally coming to DVD! Not known whther it'll be the theatrical version or the GOODTIMES home video release. It'll be a bare-bones no extra's version remastered in widescreen, but only in stereo...that's okay though, my VHS of it is wearing out. I'll have my fanpage up for it to compensate for the lack of special features. It'll be available 08/22/2006, just in time for Nintendo Wii's launch!

DVD- Street Fighter II: The Animated Movie UNCUT

I saw an ad for this at work and looked it up. Apparently this is the original Japanese version uncut for the first time officially. I already own the movie, but for it suppossedly being uncut, with extras as well as both the Japanese & English tracks, I'll buy it again. Details are a lil' shakey 'cos Manga's official site is so damned jank. It'll be coming out: 07/18/2006, right around the corner.

July 09, 2006

DVD- Voltron: Defender Of The Universe

Voltron is finally coming to DVD! WEP is working with Media Blasters and they will be bringing out the full original (Voltron lion force) series (in 8 15 episode box sets) as well as the uncut Japanese Go Lions series. They're planning on lot's of extras to include with each box set. "V-DAY" will take place by the end of September!