More recently I've done some pretty nasty stuff to some exes to just cut them off. I was wrong, I'm not the type to burn bridges or close doors, but it was the way that I saw to get rid of them. I love for life, I still love them, but since they don't want me back in any form beyond fake friendship (using me) I had to let go of the pathetic hope that we'd be real friends or anything beyond.
I have emotional and physical problems that can no longer hold onto hope for love. It's too difficult for me, so I told them what I really wanted, they didn't like it and now I know where I stand. Have a nice life.
I also write this so that when the sjw mob tries to come for me some day, I'll point to this admittance, I'm not hiding. I told you I was bad. I'm a pervert, I love/lust pretty girls with breasts and buttocks...not gonna apologize for it. I'm not out to hurt or "get" anyone, just admitting what I like. I am the gentleman pervert.
Maybe I'm also writing this 'cos I'm too old to try to go after girls who do not want me in any way, beyond using me. I get my hopes up too high and it's too painful falling from those heights. Breathing is already too difficult for me to be living off thin air.